July 26, 2012

And I have cancer

Filed under: Uncategorized — by The Blue Folder @ 3:33 pm
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5:45 am, let me sleep, let me hide, no such luck, I must rise. Too much to do, too much that won’t get done.  6:30 and I’ve already cried. 6:45 tripped and fell, dropped it all trying to do too much too fast. The real injustice was I still hadn’t had my morning cup of coffee.  7:03 woe is me.   Wonder what is going to slip through the gap, wonder if I’m going to crack.  I’m not who I was anymore, such a bore. Too much drama (What the hell!) wonder if my friends will tire.  7:54 the tears do flow, so much worry on my mind, so many answers I seek to find.  Guess I should shut up and get going, it’s going to be a rough couple of weeks…monthes…years.

Chemo effects slowly slipping away, yippee. Went in yesterday for the  pre surgery appointment  (with my three YaYa pals, bless their hearts) and was told the tumor had shrunk from 5×6 to 1×1 thus so much less cutting.  Basically they will do a lumpectomy on the right, cut the left to match and do a lift to pull the tissue up so nothing in blocking the area to be radiated (The tumor is on the underside of my breast) The surgery is 3 1/2 hours and I will be there over night. My Sis (Thank God) will be coming to stay with me. Surgey is 8/7, would love prayers for speedy healing so I can get back to work quickly.

Sorry so glum, it’s complicated right now, oh and I have cancer.

On a happy note, my heart is filled with love and gratitude for the help/love from family and friends. This is the wind beneath my wings.









  1. Sometimes a good messy cry is the best medicine. Sending prayers and strength your way.

    Comment by mainelyhopeful — July 26, 2012 @ 3:54 pm |Reply

  2. Yeah, what “mainelyhopeful” said!!! Could not have said it better and I totally believe it!!!
    Rest up, my sweet, and know that you are cared for, prayed for and LOVED!!!
    (((BIG gentle HUGS)))

    Comment by Marci — July 26, 2012 @ 10:31 pm |Reply

  3. When I was going thru chemo, I tell myself, in the next day or two, I will feel better. Chores that can wait have to wait. I cooked easier meals on my weak days. Keep the good spirit up!

    Comment by Carina — July 29, 2012 @ 5:43 pm |Reply

  4. Hi,

    We will be praying for you to have speedy recovery.


    Comment by Anna Dorrell — August 7, 2012 @ 2:38 am |Reply

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