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April 22, 2012

Climbing Mt. Everest

This cancer is a strange animal putting me in my own little world yet part of a much bigger world as well. I hear the loving voices, I fell the soft hands holding me up and for each and everyone no matter how small I am grateful.  I feel like I am climbing Mount Everest and I have a cheering squad calling me from the top “You can do it, you can do it, here grab my rope and hold on tight, we won’t let you fall”.  This last week has been very interesting in that I needed to let go of the ropes being tossed to me to see what it would be like if they were not there for me to hold on so tightly to.  I climbed, I cryed, I rested and though I let go of the ropes I could still feel  your pull right along with me. I found my own strenghth as well, took the time to look at what was possible for me right now and how to do “what I can” to the max.  This has made me feel less vulnerable and more powerful, I can’t do it all but I can do a lot. I can see the top of the mountian and that’s where I am going.

Chemo #9 over and done.  The doctors seem quite marveled/thirlled with the shrinkage of the tumor, It is no longer mesurable without machinary. Still have to have chemo part two, surgery and radiation. Side effects come and go, yes they are a bummer but not worse than death.  As the saying goes “The best way to get through hell is straight through it”.

Side Effects~

Painful rashy bald head, pain in stomach, bloat,nausea,  darkening brittle painful finger tips and toe tips (This is a real bummer), clumsiness, sinus and ear pain, hot flashes, sore throat, diarreaha, sensitive skin, sore teeth, general slowness and the port hurts alot, could be my least favorite part. (It will be removed with surgery, yippee!)

With the utmost gratitude to all of those who have reached out, your hand feels so nice.

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7 Comments »

  1. WE ARE HERE FOR YOU my dear. Every step of the way!!! You may let go but I assure you, Simone, we won’t and ESPECIALLY GOD WON’T LETCHOOO GO!!!

    Carina is right. Hang in there.

    Life sucks right now but at least its life. And we are grateful for every moment of yours.

    Love you ooodles & gobs & gobs,
    Marci

    Comment by Marci — April 23, 2012 @ 2:45 am |Reply

    • Marci your posts are almost as wonderful beautiful as those hugs from you in real life, XOXO X

      Comment by The Blue Folder — May 3, 2012 @ 5:21 am |Reply

  2. You cannot do it all, but yes you can do a lot! I can imagine how empowering it could be to test your strength and energy. I’m glad the ropes are there and I’m glad you can let go of them when you need to. xot

    Comment by Tara — April 30, 2012 @ 6:12 pm |Reply

    • Empowerng and frighting, because I can’t get out of bed to put the thoughts of paper, soon though.

      Comment by The Blue Folder — May 3, 2012 @ 5:20 am |Reply

  3. I wanted to drop a note to tell you that I am rooting for you and sending you a bouquet of flowers and big puffy hearts ❤

    Comment by sherrysf — May 2, 2012 @ 1:31 am |Reply

  4. We are all praying and rooting for you my Dear. You are so strong and powerful with your words. You inspire us all.

    Comment by Marlene Eastman — May 3, 2012 @ 4:44 pm |Reply


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