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March 28, 2012

There’s a bald lady in my mirror

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Where the heck have I been? What day is it? What year is it? Questions I seriously ask myself?  Since Sherman left I went into slow motion, not going out, not calling, not writing just in this inward (tired) place. Trying hard to find peace with it but find that I don’t have the energy to fight it either.  Not to worry I am not down and out and need help, actually feeling so much better that the virus and the sinus infection have passed, just trying to to do what my body says/feels.  I do go for a walk with the dogs almost every day, I do clean, cook and spend alot of time on my health. Boy this cancer is a part time job for sure.  Last Thursday on Chemo day which I went to with Chris and Karen (Two of my Ya Ya gals) the doctor told me my tumor had shrunk from 5x6cm to 3x3cm, praise God and UCSF for that!  My goal is to stay as strong as I can so that I do not have a low blood cell count and get a delay in treatment. I do this by taking my supplements, eating right, drinking lots of water, moving to keep my circulation going and rest when needed. So far so good.

Still can’t get used to seeing a bald lady in the mirror, nor the fact that the shampoo slides right off and I don’t have to comb my hair, or dry my hair. I also really notice everyone elses hair like never before, hair really is pretty and different on each person.

I love to cook my chicken with dried Tarragon. I ran out and since I eat a lot of chicken (high in protein) I made it a priority to get some more, I went to three stores before I finally found some, brought it home went to put in in the empty Tarragon mason jar only to find it full. Full! What the the hell? I still can’t figure out when or where! Chemo brain for sure. I find myself doing a lot of preplanning/list making etc. to try and compensate. I figure it’s good practice for my later years in life.

Went for my first public outing, a memorial for a wonderful 105 year old women, so glad my sister was here to get ready with me and that she drove, really did not feel like it and most likely would have stayed home.  Cried a few tears for some reason, got myself all the way dressed except for the head, debated/settled on a hat over the wig and off we went.  Didn’t feel like my outward exuberant self but was glad I went.

 

Good things about cancer~

learning to be frugal

drinking less wine (Only because I don’t feel like it, but it does saves money LOL)

more hugs, more hugs

laying around with the dogs

weight loss

introspection

more chatting with family

friends love

 

New side effects~

Light sensitivity

diminished eye sight

Taste changes

Rash on head

 

Love Love Love, S

 

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5 Comments »

  1. Well, bless your heart my dear Simone. Chemo brain is setting in cuz today is only Tuesday, March 27th not the 28th yet….but will be in 3.5 hrs. LOL
    Teasing yah. Makin’ yah laugh.

    Loving these blogs baby! Jes keep ’em coming. Enjoying reading about your day(s).

    Please lemme know if I can do ANYTHING for you? No shaving my head…perhaps sumsum else? LOL

    Loving yah lots n’ lots!!! (((Big hugs)))

    Comment by Marci — March 28, 2012 @ 3:36 am |Reply

  2. WOW! I see where the date and time stamp are now….its telling me itz 3:36AM on Wednesday March 28th. Boy, I’ve been up a looooooong time! LOL

    No, seriously…. and I’m not tired at all!!! LOL (toooo funny!) This blog needs a new clock! LOL

    XOXO

    Comment by Marci — March 28, 2012 @ 3:39 am |Reply

  3. I missed you and am glad you are back. I’ve had a lot of problems too but won’t bore you with them. Suffice to say I will be glad when my last tax return is done and I can concentrate on moving to Rossmoor. I’m moving on 4/21 and can’t wait! You will have long hair by then!

    I feel so bad for you with all that you are going through. The losing weight sounds good to me. Hard way to do it though.

    Keep praying!

    Love,
    Marlene

    Comment by Marlene Eastman — March 28, 2012 @ 12:21 pm |Reply

  4. What Chemo brain? I think my family is moving my things around just to mess with me. That’s my plan to cope with this brain fog. Blame them. 😉

    Comment by mainelyhopeful — March 28, 2012 @ 1:18 pm |Reply

  5. ((Hugs)) my friend!

    Comment by Tamara — March 28, 2012 @ 2:30 pm |Reply


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