March 17, 2012

Not a good time to commit a crime

Boy what a week, three trips to UCSF for progress tests and Chemo in addition to Sherman being  home on spring break.  He is doing great and it’s nice to have  home. This was our first visit since all the cancer stuff went down. He sure wanted to be here for me , kept assuring him I am good hands is so many unbelievable ways and to get on with his new life. He went to two of the appointments with me. Twas very nice.

Feeling a mix of assorted symptoms , some constant, some come and go but nothing more than slowing me down and causing me to put much more thought into everything I do, if I can remember to do it.  Chemo brain is quite present and I am finding my way as to how not to be so affected by it. I keep a note pad close by and hope I remember what to write down.  It’s actually quite disturbing. A few examples of fuzzy brain:

I was dishing up dinner plates and put the salad dressing on the plates before the salad

I get a thought I rush to grab the note pad and before I can get out the note pad the thought is gone

I was putting away dishes and had my frying pan in hand and I just stood there stareing at it for the longest time  trying so hard to remember where it goes in my kitchen

Sent Miranda to a doctors appointment which I logged into my calender on the wrong day

Went to Safeway to pick up a prescription, got home and thought “Shoot I forgot to pick up my prescription” but then remembered I did. The next day waiting in the doctors office ‘Shoot I forgot to pick up my prescription”  but then remembered I did.

My typing skills are severely diminished

There are many more but I can’t remember what they are.

Shaved my head, couldn’t take shedding more than my dogs that I have to vacuum up after daily. It was so yucky having hair everywhere and I mean everywhere. Not a good time to commit a crime as your hair samples would surely be left behind. I went to a salon owned by a dear sweet lady, filled with such caring and loving women who took extra good care of me.  When I checked in at the front desk there were three ladies behind the counter, I told them my name and they gave the “You’ve got cancer look on their faces” but quickly swaddled me in love and laughter. They shaved, washed conditioned and massaged my head. Sent me off with promises to pray for me.

I have one friend who volunteered to shave her head is solidarity and one who volunteered to shave hers legs, such good friends. Just too much to ask though.

Today I planned an impromptu “check out my bald head” get together at a friends, made an awesome baked goat cheese appetizer, we sipped wine and tried on my wig, hats and scarves and had fun, so nice to have sisters and girlfriends. Two hours of  fun was more than enough fun for me, came home took a hot bath and went to bed.Think I’m getting a virus.

Eeeeee gads, I’m bald! Not nearly as bad as I thought. I bought a very cute wig, I have hats, I have scarves, but for now bald feels best.

So many loving hearts with me and for this I am sooo grateful.  What would I do without all of you. See that smile on my face in that bald photo, It’s because I am loved and cared for by you.   XO S



  1. Simone, you are beautiful! I’ll bet your hair will grow in even more beautiful than it was before. I will pray for you that it does. Marlene

    Comment by Marlene Eastman — March 17, 2012 @ 2:11 pm |Reply

    • Marlene, I have sure learned that my looks are not on the top of the priority list, they never really were for me any way. What I feel like is that making an effort sure goes a long way in how you feel in general which in a situation like this is so important. I love your posts 🙂

      Comment by The Blue Folder — March 17, 2012 @ 3:41 pm |Reply

  2. You look beautiful, Simone!!!

    Comment by SallySuppiger — March 17, 2012 @ 3:12 pm |Reply

  3. Simone, Michael just told me about the new challenge you are facing….you are strong and beautiful! Keep the faith…..Renee Lorden

    Comment by Renee Lorden — March 17, 2012 @ 3:48 pm |Reply

    • Thank you Renee, Hanging tough, figuring it out day by day, hour by hour. Hugs to all

      Comment by The Blue Folder — March 17, 2012 @ 4:17 pm |Reply

  4. You look great and I love your positive, upbeat attitude. It is contagious.

    Comment by Carina — March 17, 2012 @ 4:29 pm |Reply

  5. Bald is no big deal – you really do look beautiful! I love you and know that this is tough. You will get through this and we all are thinking of you and we all are there for you. Rest, walk, drink water, take lots of notes. Love you!

    Comment by Virginia — March 17, 2012 @ 4:31 pm |Reply

  6. Big hugs & love to my dear bald Spice sister!!!

    Be a spider monkey Simone…

    You’re TOUGH & AWESOME girlfriend!!! You CAN beat this doggone thang!!!

    POW!!! Cancer to the moon!!!

    XOXO marci

    Comment by Marci — March 17, 2012 @ 4:34 pm |Reply

  7. Oh…and you looK absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!

    Comment by Marci — March 17, 2012 @ 4:34 pm |Reply

  8. Love you and your fuzzy beautiful head very much dear sis! So enjoyed visiting yesterday and the company of your fabulous friends.

    Comment by Tara Ingram — March 17, 2012 @ 5:05 pm |Reply

    • Glad you got to spend some time with them and know why I love them so. Sure was nice to be with you and your gentle touch. XOXO

      Comment by The Blue Folder — March 17, 2012 @ 10:19 pm |Reply

  9. Hello Simone,

    I’m Debra’s caretaker and blog manager. Wanted you to know we are here with you too. She has had good results with a Vitamin C IV drip each week prior to chemo, maybe something to look into for you. She is worried about you and wants to share what she knows to help you heal. This is her second go round with the big C as breast cancer. Very knowledgable about natural supplements that give results and support the body during this fight. We send you love and light, prayers to guide your way. Be safe on this journey and may we all meet on the other side of it healthy!


    Comment by Deb's Healing Support Team — March 18, 2012 @ 6:01 pm |Reply

  10. Excuuseee me….St Patrick’s Day and you weren’t wearing green!!! Did you get pinched?

    Comment by Joy Snow — March 19, 2012 @ 1:17 am |Reply

    • Actually Joy I got the shave on the 17th, Spent St. Patty’s Day laying low 🙂

      Comment by The Blue Folder — March 20, 2012 @ 8:46 pm |Reply

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